To all of 1D:

I would like to apologise for all bad stuff I have done and anything bad about me that you dislikes or hates.Please forgive me and remind me next time.I wouldnt dare to make promises,as I dont believe I am that dependable to keep everything.While I still have this sort of "thinking" in me,I would try my best.

I just thought through after a certain incident,and I think I made it a little closer to what in me.It may seems way complex for people like you people,but put it simply,please understand I am not someone who aims to hurt others badly.I am sorry for my bad ways,I would try to be good and control myself for now.It would be easy for now since I dont see you people for real.I hope I can improve myself,I would try to keep that mindset.One thing I want to admit,I am a completely addicted attention seeker who do silly things to attract.Even though I realise it doesnt work,I kept doing it throughout the years,like a possessed guy.No,I am not possessed or fake or anything.For real,I think I realised a lot of things this year...plenty.Actually,I dont fully understand myself yet,it is sort of strange.I dont know the reason,whether it is natural or not.

One thing for sure that I dont dare to promise....study study..study...that's me.I not saying I cant help it....but know that the angel is trying but the devil is still prevailing at times.No matter you understand what I say or not,please know I wish everyone would be happy,at least.
I dont mind being in last if it helps u all though...

For Ren Jie...I may have did mistakes without knowing it....please know that I am sorry.I would try to change it for now.Perry,thank you for listening to me...even it is a little...and for distrupting your bleach hours.I know you are not a counsellor,and dont mind what I said before anyway.......it was desperate for me for nobody to talk to...

Even if you dont care what I say,wish to block me,change 1D login stuff......at the very least...have a good holiday.

Kai Xuan